Phoebe didnt look back at Ryan, fearing if she did she would completely fall apart. She took her mothers hand, keeping nerself in check by will alone. She k ew it wouldn't last though. She was starting to shake. At what he said, and it was then tnat she broke down. She sunk to the ground, and cried, rocking back and forth. 

She wasn't a monster, but when he said it she felt like one. The trouble was, she knew she shouldnt have suggested she needed to protect him. Yet she had still said it, trying to get him to understand, trying to tell him she would always come back.

now, she didnt even know if she could ever get up.