[quote=@Caits]
Connor was wary of Kagerou. He didn't know who she was, or what she could do, nor did he knew if she was trustworthy. For all he knew, she was a spy for Waller. Or magneto. Or so many others. How could he know? He shifted, watching her warily. But his heart wasn't in it. A thick weight of guilt, dread, worry and fear filled him, and it wasn't a pleasant mix. He was about to speak, when Kijani said his name.

He looked about quickly, already rising from the chair, and stopped at the almost wail like no. And then he continued. He didn't know if he had any comfort left to give right then, or if he even had anything to say, and for one, brief vanity filled moment, he wished he didn't look like he'd been put through the mill once or twice. If only so he didn't seem distressed. 

He reached out carefully, hating to see her so upset, so vulnerable, so....broken. He had never thought to apply that to Kijani. But right then, right there, it seemed like it. So he turned from comfort, knowing that would probably make it worse. He shoved his hands in his pockets, and bowed his head. 

[b]"Why?"[/b] He asked softly, after a time. [b]"Why do this, why let them win? By doing this...but trying to k-kill"[/b] He stumbled over the words, [b]"Yourself...you let them win. You let them prove that you were nothing. That your weak, that you just can't hack it. You let them think that, even as you think it might be taken back control. Its neither! Its a way out, yes, a way out of everything, a way out of not dealing witht the crap life brings" [/b]

He let out a breath slowly. [b]"Why didn't you talk to me? Oh, kijani"[/b] And now he moved to comfort, to soothe, as much for himself, as for Kijani. [b]"The thing about life is that there are bright spots, bright patches that let you deal with the crap. We can figure something out, whatever is wrong enough to bring you to this"[/b] he said softly, so softly, and right then, he didn't care about anything else The fear disappeared slightly, for she was alive and awake. 

He took her hand, and was silent for a moment. [b]"If you want me to leave....well, I won't. So you'll just have to deal with that."[/b]

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KIjani wanted to speak. She wanted to say something to Connor, anything. Explain, defend herself, even get angry. But she had nothing. All she could do was move herself until she was just barely leaning against him. Even that motion felt too much for her body to go through. "Connor.." She was speaking into his shirt. "Why..." It felt like her brain couldn't quite get her mouth to make the words. "Why are... you... still here?" It didn't make the least bit of sense to her. Connor's behavior was like a book written in a language that she'd never heard. The outside was something she knew, the contents were... unintelligible. "I... I to-told you to..." Her tears started to wet his chest. "Go."