[quote=@chukklehed]
If you want to imagine I see you in a negative light, go right ahead, but I would appreciate it if you wouldn't bring vulgar language into this conversation, since it neither aids your side nor relieves tensions.
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[quote=@Destinyfailhorror17]
-pat Nk back- I do hope we can all comment and say good things baout peoples character together. Let say...i do feel sad when no one give comments on mine but it not much of a deal. I see Nk point and hope we can understand that.
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Thanks.

I mean, I do tend to raise my voice when I mention even the slightest of something I personally enjoy or dislike, but I never mentioned that I was going to do anything about it. What you see from me is "confusion," not "hatred." As a confused person, I expected someone to help me understand the reason they like such things that made me feel confused, but so far, all I received was critcism. That was the case for Athalia, and I really want to avoid that shit here.

The reason why I swear is because no one seemed to mind when everyone else did. I mind my right to speak freely, especially when people like you have used swear words at me in the Athalia Pad, Chukklez (in a more positive way, I'll admit). So far, there's no sign of you seeing me in a less negative light, which is why I feel so frustrated and pissed.

And for fuck's sake, I'm just feeling really negative because of all these people getting into tragic accidents around me, yet here I am, unable to know whether I'm truly contributing to something in the right way. I'm [u]scared[/u]. I'm scared that people will ignore me like I have ignored those who died around me. I just feel this crazy need to know what people are thinking, and I just can't control it for some reason.

One day, I'd like a talk with anyone. Maybe Destiny, maybe you, Chukklez, and maybe my brother overseas. Because honestly, I never did speak out about people's views like this before.