Aery couldn't hear him shouting, though she felt the wind of it on her face. "Not eating too much. Have you seen me at meals? Well, I guess you haven't. Anyway. Sometimes Silly has to force-feed me because I just stress out too much to eat. I just... I don't know what to do." She frowned at him. "Unfortunately, no one here bears even a slight resemblance to me. Most of these people are either dark-haired and dark-eyed or blonde and green-eyed. And they're all way too tall." Even though she was probably already close to her full height, she was only about 4'5" "I can tough it out for one more day. After that, well... Ansel said she was going to be here soon... Is there some poison I might take to..." But she broke down again just thinking about it. An assassin she might be, but she would never take the life of an unborn child. Not her own. Though it would probably kill her, to see this through. She was very small-boned and quite honestly she didn't think there was room for a baby inside of her.
She walked over to Rowan slowly, lightly put her arms around him, seeking whatever comfort he might provide. "I just don't know what to do, Rowan. It'll break my heart to kill the baby and might kill me if I try to see this through. And I... It's a monster's child. If it were the child of someone I loved I'd do it, I'd do it in a heartbeat, just die so that my child, one of my friend's children, could have a happy life, but... The child of a man who tortured me. I know I shouldn't punish the child for the deeds of the parent, but... I just can't... I look at myself, and all I can think of is that I'm still there. That I'm still in that dark room with all the blood and I'm still at his mercy and he's going to torture me to death and I just can't do it."