[i]are you drinking again[/i] or [i]again[/i]

"are you drinking
again?" she asks
again.
you make excuses
again "it's just to keep me well"
she laughs but
she's crying
again

are you drinking
again you wonder
when does it become a problem
is it when you sit
in the bathroom
and you cry because she's gone
again or is it
when you call her
midnight
she tells you to go to sleep
you hear her cry
again

are you drinking
again she smiles
you're in bed and it's sunday
she brings you tea
again the second time this morning
she's happy but it's a dream
again you can't see her
her brother told you to get help
again "why can't they mind
their own business" you laugh
again you know why
because you're drunk
again

are you drinking
again you ask yourself how
did you let it get this bad
again it had been months
she agreed to see you
she left the restaurant
again so you drank
again you cried
again you called her
again "you're sick"
again you are
again you can't see straight
again she's gone
again there's nothing left
again