Sebastian gritted his teeth, trying to keep his cool. He understood where Serena was coming from, he really did, but if he stayed he was GOING to heal her. He couldn't help it. His jaw worked as he kept completely silent and worked on just breathing for a moment before he finally stood. He could tell her he couldn't be here all he wanted. He could tell her that if he healed her the darkness would bleed on them both but if he didn't he was GOING to have a serious breakdown in about five minutes. His hands shook as he rung out a cloth and dabbed at Anna's wound but it only made it worse... Seeing the damage this close made his palms tingle and his mind daze. He took a few steps back, shaking his head.

He walked out and when he came back he had the nurse with him, "She wakes up and you call us... immediately."

The nurse blinked, flustered, but seemed to soften when she saw Sebastian's hands shaking. "We'll call you as soon as she wakes."

Seb looked at Serena, his eyes apologetic, "I can't... and you can't be alone. So we both have to leave."

He didn't leave any room for argument, he didn't stay TO argue. He left the curtained area and then left the room. His hand already drawing out a cigarette and his mind racing... He felt ill. He knew he'd been harsh with Serena but as much as she usually understood, she'd never understand his overwhelming need to FIX things... it was what spirit made him do... It wasn't a choice when it was someone so close to him. It was instinct and he could fight it all he wanted. If he healed her, darkness... if he didn't... serious breakdown... and either way Serena would have been caught in the crossfire.

He felt like he'd just chosen between his best friend and his love and it made him feel like shit either way... He ran a hand down his face and struggled to calm down.