[@Jinxer]

Oh, yes, the dark days of self-insert wish fulfillment - also called, the chicken game of mutually-assured destruction my past self loved to dabble in during her teenage years. But, it's a necessary roadblock on the path to decent writing; we've all had our guilty pleasures in writing. That's just the way things are. 

If it makes you feel any better, back during my embarrassing Mary Sue days, most of my characters looked like they could have fallen right out of Dragon Ball Z. Or that one My Immortal fanfic. 

Good lord am I glad to be out of that stage, hopefully forever.