Hey no, don't apologize. I know exactly what you're going through and dealing with. I've had every one of those kinds of experiences. I totally understand. I've also taken long breaks, and questioned why I do it, quite a bit. It's one reason why I haven't really attempted to set up another game and run it in quite some time. 

Now I'm conflicted though on whether I want to run one of my favorite characters, who never gets much play time... or work on something new.