"Now, Ellie don't say that." Joel replied, knitting his eyebrows together giving her a sympathetic look. "What's done is done, let's just move on from it."

Joel fortunately managed to somehow suppress and bury the guilt that came with lying to Ellie. However now that she mentioned it though, he felt like a bag of bricks just dropped onto him. His eyes shifted from left to right, before he gave his cheek a good scratch. The sooner they get to Jackson, to safety, they will put it all behind them and it will be like nothing happened. He hoped at least. He knew the scar on Ellie's arm would be a constant reminder of her immunity and their journey to reach the fireflies to them. Especially to her. What he did at the hospital wasn't any different of what he did before, but it nagged him. A soft whisper in the back of his head. He took a couple steps backwards before gesturing for her to come along and turning on his heel to continue on. The sooner they get there, the sooner this will all be over. For now though, he had to quickly steer them away from the grim topic. 

"Its actually kind of pretty, ain't it?" Joel repeated. "Why don't we take hikes too?"

He held a steady and slow pace, taking in the fresh air and gazing the beautiful scenery. It somewhat took him away from the awareness of the horrors out there. He missed it, he missed simpler times, he missed Sarah. Dwelling on subjects like these though, somehow wavers his will to continue fighting. However Ellie being introduced into his life gave it more meaning and it made him for selfish. He couldn't lose Ellie like he lost Sarah. With a small shake of his head, he quickly put things on lock down. Shoving grim thoughts into the overloaded vault in his head.

"Hey, when we get there what do you say about some dinner?" Joel asked, giving his tone a bit more cheer.