[quote=@liferusher] Back to the ignored part i'm dumb. There is a reason to be sad about it, since you will be gone. Cant say it happens when either you drink yourself to death because some stupid allergy or you get in a car accident. I would really want to cry if something like that happens since you would be gone but i just can't. When my grandpa for an unknown reason everyone was crying except for me. My mind immediatly went like your family will hate you now. When my grandma was in the hospital last week and nearly died because the doctors hit the main blood line i didnt feel any emotions either. That what person i am a sad non special nor usefull. Im dont even know if i can call myself a person anymore. [/quote] I'm the person who reacts, but doesn't really understand emotion. Yeah, I'll cry, but it's like a reflex. When I was younger, I didn't realize I was sad whenever I left my parents or grandparents until my mother literally told me why I always felt ill. I know my family wouldn't expect that of me. They'd go like 'Shit happens, get over it you wimp. Time to move on.' So probably why I have this attitude. It's not like they don't care, but they just keep walking. I'm one of the more emotional attitude in comparison. Cause I can reactively cry, just not get it on the inside. Body seemed to do that for me. [quote=@hatakekuro] I've been to a museum in Spain that had a lot of brutal methods of torture and execution when I eight or nine. It was an experience. xD [/quote] That sounds awesome.