[quote=@Silver Fox]
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I'm the person who reacts, but doesn't really understand emotion. Yeah, I'll cry, but it's like a reflex. When I was younger, I didn't realize I was sad whenever I left my parents or grandparents until my mother literally told me why I always felt ill.

I know my family wouldn't expect that of me.

They'd go like 'Shit happens, get over it you wimp. Time to move on.'

So probably why I have this attitude. It's not like they don't care, but they just keep walking. I'm one of the more emotional attitude in comparison. Cause I can reactively cry, just not get it on the inside. Body seemed to do that for me.

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That sounds awesome.
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Its annoying to not be able to cry by other people. I only cried once because i told my mom my selfish dream. And thats about it. I keep putting up this fake smile while i keep dreaming about my own selfish desire. I only cry deep in the night and try to get panic attacks to let it all out at the moment. Its hard for me to talk to others about it and i havent been able to tell it to others person nor talk about it. Sorry for coming up with my selfish thoughts out of nowhere