[quote=@hatakekuro] Not to a nine year old me that was scared of everything. xD [/quote] True. Back then I was playing Onimushu. And mother was a bit blunt of everything xD Granted, I was always terrified of the darkness and nightmares. So wasn't allowed to watch many things too gory, [quote=@liferusher] Its annoying to not be able to cry by other people. I only cried once because i told my mom my selfish dream. And thats about it. I keep putting up this fake smile while i keep dreaming about my own selfish desire. I only cry deep in the night and try to get panic attacks to let it all out at the moment. Its hard for me to talk to others about it and i havent been able to tell it to others person nor talk about it. Sorry for coming up with my selfish thoughts out of nowhere [/quote] Yeah. I don't have much comparison to that feeling. Since I can and do, I'm just told not to.