Everything happened so fast, [i]No[/i], he wants to say. He screams it in his head, this wasn't good this was wrong if Annabelle or the rest of the family found out he'd be in for a beating of a lifetime. Shuddering at the thought, bags were being pushed into his arms-- talk of food and kind words. Something he hadn't heard in a LONG time, It takes him a moment to realize what Lily was planning. 

     Almost instantly the color drains from his face, a worried look on his face. Flinching away at her touches, Bug is terrified. His body is aching and trembling, he doesn't know what to do. He's standing with a bag of food gripped between his fingers, almost scared he'll wake up and this wasn't real. When he watches her return with forks, he reaches for it-- the object feels strange in his hands after such a long time. [i]Why was she doing this ? Did she want to get him in trouble ? [/i] 

     Glancing down at the salad then to Lily, looking for permission that this was okay. Even if he knew it was wrong, everything was wrong. But he quickly loses it and starts shoving the food into his mouth, barely chewing before swallowing the bites, the feeling of REAL food were wonderful. This tastes so much better than cold leftovers. He's unaware of the soft moaning sounds he's making, until he looks up at Lily with a full mouth. 

     Quickly dropping his fork and pushing the plate away, feeling ashamed. His stomach feels sick nervously he picks and pulls at the bottom of his oversized shirt with his head down, "Uh, I'm sorry... I didn't mean it." The fact that he was pleading with her for eating the food-- asking for forgiveness. Bug feels tears stinging in his eyes, guilt washes over him with every passing moment. He starts shaking and tears are sliding down his cheeks. He's scared and so, so desperate.  He turns to look in the bathroom, wanting to force his fingers down his throat. 

     "This is bad... If Annabelle, or-- " He couldn't finishes his sentence he was so overwhelmed, he feels so small and stupid. He has never done something like this before and now he knows why. [i]Why did she have to have such a kind voice. Why did he let her trick him into eating when he wasn't given permission[/i], pushing himself into the corner hugging his knees to his chest. Wiping his eyes, trying to keep quiet he couldn't risk them hearing him, Bug hated himself right now more then ever.