Hugh seemed rather at peace after letting it out. He felt calm. "It's true that I was a wreck after losing everything, but I decided I wanted to heal." He sighed, letting his pipe get cold as it hung from his hand. "I don't want to live trying to get back what I once had. Somethings must be laid to rest." He let his head rest in his hands, leaning his elbows against his legs.

His face looked somber. "Of course, when there was the possibility that I would lose you too, I went into that rage. I don't want to lose anyone else." He looked down, sounding sheepish. "I just don't want to lose anymore." His eyes had a tired look about them and a slight look of sadness took over his features.

"You're not going to replace her. I don't want you to replace her or my children. I won't ever ask that of you." He looked to her, now very serious. "My goal has only ever been to live." He brought his hand down her back to rest on her side, letting it gently glide over her features. "I'm not sure how to put it all in words. I'm not sure how to let you know that I want to be with you, not to replace something I lost, or escape from the past."

Hugh seemed flustered as if he had come against a wall that he couldn't break. He didn't want to just leave it at [i]"I had a wife and kids. They died."[/i] It was like being trapped in that cage again and he was trying to break out. It was like maiming every skeleton in his path just to get to her. His wife might always hold a place in his heart, but he would never get her back. His children had been his world, but he had lost them. 

Hugh wanted to just love Sana. He wanted corny, stupid, funny, wonderful, dramatic, sexy love. He wanted for both of them to be it all together. He wasn't about to let a few secrets hold them apart from each other.