[@Akayaofthemoon] I guess it isn't as long as I'm is at least trying, thanks for reassuring me.  And yeah, the job market does really suck in a lot of places.  Where I live it's almost impossible to get a normal job, luckily for me though there [i]are[/i] a good number of staffing agencies nearby who will help you get any number of temporary manufacturing jobs, which is what I did for a while.  It's cool that you do web design, I have a younger brother who is into that.