A lot of the times I feel like my mastery of the English language in it's written form is simply lacking. I do a lot of work as a writer and most of my pieces seem consistently flawed. I have troubles gathering my thoughts sometimes. Also, the first sentence of this paragraph was extremely pretentious, but I wanted to make sure people knew I could write. Like, I wanted to say "I don't write good," but if I just say that people will go "No shit, you don't write [i]well[/i]. Then the whole thing would break down into me saying "No that's not what I'm having issues with," and people going "Yeah, it's your grammar it's fucked."

I just have problems with word choice and my mind moves like a mile a minute and it seems like I can't pay attention to anything for too long. If I try to just write something, I'll end up not being able to put it down properly.

In fact the only times I'm able to write well is when I pre-occupy large chunks of my attention to other things. Right now I'm talking to Drago, Seba, the spam skype group, watching Soul Eater and a Let's Play. It's the only way I can actually focus on what I'm doing and at this point the process of writing is starting to become nearly autonomous. Maybe it's because I type so fast, that's why my words come out all jumbled, I'm not actually thinking about what I'm writing because I can  type faster then I can talk / think.

Angst, whine, I'll never be a writer, qq