[quote=@Caits] It's just...I feel like I'm putting all this effort into pharmacy and...I'm not getting the results I expect and...I just don't know. I'm tired of thinking I've figured something out and then having the answer be completely different to what I found and not knowing why and and and and...I just...want to travel through time and beat the crap out of every scientist ever [i]flops down[/i] [/quote] It's natural to feel hopeful about something new and have high expectations. I do it, my parents do it, my brother does it, and my friends do it. We all do it and then get disappointed because it doesn't live up to what we hoped it would be. And there are sometimes the lucky bastards that have everything go as planned for no apparent reason other than to give a giant middle finger to the rest of us. I can't offer much of a solution because I'm not much of an enlightened creature though I guess from my own personal experience just take things one step at a time and make the best of a situation even when you feel at your absolute worse. Sorry if this isn't any help. >.<