Sayurilamented the loss of Justin's CD collection. It would have been interesting to see what music he could bring to the table. She knew that the CD collection would never be seen again. Thinking inwardly, she was very glad that her own music was here with her, including her silver Walkman. She'd never moved her music into the digital era and never bothered with an iPod, though many people thought she was crazy because of it. They thought she was just trying to be a hipster. She thought it was ironic that it used to be the other way around, those with iPods were the hipsters. 

At Carson's response to her joke about making a Will, she felt a little guilty. Even from the few minutes of him being here, she thought he seemed nice. She liked that he seemed lighthearted and straightforward. She hoped that she hadn't scared him or intimidated him. She put up a wall to keep others from getting too close, but she didn't want to outright push them away. But at the same time, another part of her didn't care. It was like a coldness that could sometimes spread through her entire body. A coldness that kept her from caring about the other people in the base. She didn't like that about herself, but it wasn't something she could control. She always displayed an air of coldness towards everyone, but only rarely did that coldness actually reflect how she was inside in the truest sense of the word. 

At Carson's mention of his family and his mother, Sayuri almost began to cry. His story about texting her so she wouldn't worry made her remember her own mother. She used to text her too. Especially after her father died. She hadn't wanted her mom to worry about her. At first, it seemed to help her mom. But then her mother began to slip into a coldness of her own and Sayuri's texts ceased to matter. 

Her eyes slipped to Theodore and the apple he was holding. She raised an eyebrow at him as he just stood there. She made a note of his mood. It sometimes irked her how his mood could be, but she really wasn't one to talk. She wasn't much of a ray of sunshine herself and she hadn't done any better at her own introduction than Theodore did with his own after he had sat down next to Delta. She could feel that cold inside her spread and she felt irritated with herself. She wanted to do as Delta said, and go see Slate to make sure he was okay, but she still wasn't sure if she should go. If she were more retrospective, she might note that she was too scared to go and try to see him. Scared that he would reject her outright. 

Delta's talk about the two scenarios that could involve Phi brought her back into the room. It made her think of her mom again and the fledgling Omega that attacked them. A sharp pain pierced her heart when she thought about what was probably happening to their families right now. Even though she had never personally run into Phi, she knew of him very well from people who had run into him. If it had been Phi who had attacked her and her mother, there would have been one more dead body that night. 

In a dazzling show of energy and spontaneity, Kana burst into the mess hall and such a think immediately demanded the attention of everyone in the room, or at least it demanded Sayuri's attention. She was envious of the way Kana seemed to be free and willing to put herself out there. Sayuri couldn't see herself doing the same. She wasn't a coward, but she also wasn't someone who possessed the initiative to face danger head-on. 

Delta spoke and as he did so, a humming filled her ears as he suddenly appeared behind Kana. The sight was sobering. If this had been a real battle the girl would be dead - and probably everyone else in the room, especially if it had been Phi. Sayuri sighed when Delta mentioned that they weren't ready. She knew it was true. She'd been practicing for months and the only consistent evidence of her power were the clouds that covered their base and kept them hidden from satellites. Delta affirmed her thoughts when he showed them his scar. Her own hand rose to her jaw to feel how it wasn't aligned correctly. The newbie Omega had gotten her good and her jaw would always remind her of that with it's clicking when she ate. Sometimes it would even lock into place if she wasn't careful. 

She noticed Sunny slip in and let out a sigh when Sunny spoke and revealed her optimism. 

Sayuri looked down and noticed that she no longer had coffee in her mug. She didn't really want a refill so she went to wash it and brought out one of her strawberry sodas instead. 

She wasn't very sure about what she should say to the others. She wasn't very good at conversation. 

[color=f7941d]"I for one,"[/color] she finally said, [color=f7941d]"would not underestimate Kana."[/color] Sayuri gave Kana a nod of solidarity.