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It took me a long time to move past it and every now and then I revert back, I crumble into a crying mess with his words on repeat and I'm sorry is the only thing I can say. It only happens when certain people yell. I think it is a tone or attitude that triggers it. I have moved on a great deal. I can take freely of it and it has no power to hold me back or hurt me anymore. Sometimes I am afriad...afraid he saw something in me that was right cause I can't stand the thought of losing me husband in anyway but then I think, he is wrong. I am so much more than he ever saw. I know I am and even though he took my ignorance of everyone is wonderful away, he also opened my eyes to steer clear of those like him. A wolf in sheep skin. 

I blamed myself for a long time because I could have made us leave sooner. I thought my mom was happy so when she asked me if I was happy, I lied and said yes. I didn't realize she was unhappy and looking for a reason to leave. It will forever be my biggest regret. This is why I don't lie or try my best never too. I tell it how it is or try to say nothing at all.