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I know all this and I have put the blame in the past. No matter what my mom says though, it is a regret. I should never have lied but it has happened and I can't change it. I think I am stronger for it. I know it is a scar on my heart but it doesn't hurt anymore and it is rare that I every fall. I can honestly say that love from friends, family, and even the one I love more than anything has done even more to my already healed heart. He knows my bad. He knows my good and sees more in me than I can sometimes see in myself. Love is strange. It is torture and wonder. It is nothing you can explain until you feel it for yourself. It will just hit you. I went on two dates and I knew. This is the man I want to be with. This is the person I want to share everything with. This is the person I trust my heart too. This is the person that will see me for me. This is the person that can read my mind or shares close thoughts. This is the person that can see when my mask is on and no one else can. He knows when I am mad. When I am sad or what I need to be happy.

I can't say romantic love is everything but it is worth having. Sometimes your family and friends just can't support you the way your lover can. I know that is silly if you haven't felt romantic love or don't want it but it is true.