[@21308] I look at some of my past relationships and they were meh. Some I loved them dearly but they were bad for me. Some were just miscommunication. My husband was the first time I just knew. It was how we matched and didn't match. That I felt happy and cloud nine when he was near. I thought I loved some of my past boyfriends dearly but as I said it was always me giving more or expressing myself and going bad or no communication. With my husband, everything was in the open and when I said something he didn't like, it wasn't thrown at me. He told me his thoughts. We could be open I know it is silly but they mean it when they say love just hits you. It doesn't have to make sense. It just happens when you least expect it or aren't even looking.