"Everyone here is to blame!" I said vehemently, scowling at my shrink. He was trying to get me to blame myself, I knew it! Well, I wasn't about to do that - I was the victim! "Everyone who uses me, who pretends to care, who pretends to understand me when they don't, just like you!" I snapped bitterly. "And even if he's dead, it's still all Father's fault, and that of everyone who enabled him. The entire family is to blame, really!"

"I would be totally fine with the people here leaving. They only care about themselves, not me. If they had really cared about me, they would have let me die like a wanted to! Even Vivian only wanted me alive for her own sake!" I brushed aside some forming tears and pressed on, raising my voice in anger. "Why should I stop being defensive? If I'm not, I'll just be hurt while my guard is down! I never want to be betrayed again! Never!"