When Adelisa said that leaving the trip would be the biggest mistake she would ever make, Lila raised her eyebrows in skepticism. It sounded like Dela was threatening her, and that was one of the many things that made Lila angry. But before she could lash out instantly like she normally would, she applied the lessons she'd tried to learn in therapy and listened to all that she had to say instead. It would be her turn to talk afterwards.

The way Adelisa was talking made it seem like Delilah was a high school girl with an immature issue with her ex-boyfriend. If only she knew how deep the situation with her and Jar had been, and how she would never be able to ever forget what had scarred her so... But that was the point, right? She [i]didn't[/i] know. No one else besides Jareth knew why it was so painful to remain in his presence for more than a few seconds. Maybe it was time to finally tell someone else, and maybe it would help her heal just a little of the gaping hole in her chest.

Lila looked at Adelisa with tears in her eyes, but took a few moments to gather up the courage to finally tell someone what had happened to her. "Dela... Remember the two months I was at that internship in another state? The one where I was completely unable to communicate with anyone? Well, the truth is it wasn't an internship. I was at a mental preserve that I checked myself into because..." Lila took a moment to calm the sobs that began to overwhelm her. "I lost a child. I was pregnant. I was having a little baby with Jareth, and though it was completely unplanned and unexpected and coming at the worst moment possible, I was so excited. I've never been so hopeful in all my life. I thought that maybe that was the sign that Jar and I could make all the shit in our relationship work for the sake of our baby, and that we would not only be a happy couple again, but be a happy family. But then the day before Valentine's Day happened; we broke up and the next thing I know I was waking up the next day cramping and bleeding and... My tiny little baby fell into my hands. And just like that, all my hopes for a future alongside the man I love and our perfect creation were [i]gone[/i]..."

Lila completely broke down. "I had never felt so alone and worthless in my whole life. I couldn't make my relationship work, and I couldn't even keep my own child safe and alive." It was a long time until Lila managed to calm down, and when she did, she spoke with little breaks in her voice. "Jar is much more than an ex-boyfriend to me. He was the father of my angel baby, even
 if it was just for those eight weeks that it lived in my womb and he had no idea about it. This is why it hurts so much to just be near him: he's a reminder of the future I couldn't and will never have. I thought that maybe by giving each other another chance we could make things work, but the old insecurities came back, and now we're once again two ex-lovers with too many painful memories shared between them."

Lila gave a deep sigh while wiping away her tear-stained face. "I will sacrifice myself only ONE more night, and this one night I will remain holed up in our condo. I will not risk being in his presence anymore, and will not be staying here any longer than that." She looked into Dela's eyes. "Please don't try to convince me otherwise. My heart can't take it."