[quote=@Kingfisher] Eh, some mothering would nice, I'm always up for mothering! :P That sounds really awful, I'm so sorry you had to endure all of that :/ It sounds like you've been immensly strong to keep going. I can't begin to imagine how much suffering you've had to put up with, but as someone whose fallen victim to the two-faced nature of people and the sudden lack of sex (sex is awesome) my heart goes out to you. I hope things are a little better now. Are you managing to cope okay? I hope your new boyfriend takes good care of you. Your parents sound like really lovely people, I'm so happy for them! :D Thank you for sharing, it feels really nice to connect with someone. [/quote] I'm a mothering person by nature. I mother everyone. That's probably why I attract lazy assholes; 'cause they see someone who will take care of them or whatever. At least that's what my counselor (who is not a real shrink, but has been more helpful than the real one eve was) thinks. The worst part was the lack of sex. I went almost two years without sex. It was awful. I make jokes about terrible things to make them seem less serious and it's honestly a really bad habit that I use to try and hide the way I feel. Things really aren't much better. I just... Every time he creates a mess for me, I just clean it right up without complaining. He knows that I'm on the brink of insanity here and he knows how hard it is for me to let him into my life again, and yet he keeps making more and more demands. Last time he was here to visit our daughter, he demanded that he get her for Christmas and that if I refused, he'd sue me for full custody. He's never going to get full custody, but the threat is enough to really mess with me head. I'm not going to just deliver her over to a person she doesn't even trust, though, so I'll jut have to endure the courts and all that if he actually goes through with it. But I guess I'm coping all right. I'm not crying as much as I used to and when I do, I'm not hiding away to do it. I don't feel like hurting myself in any way (or hurting my daughter, which was the case during my birthing depression; it was so awful to have thoughts like that). I'm more or less forcing myself to eating and sleeping right, even though I don't really feel like it. I sort of feel like I'm whining, though, 'cause my situation really isn't all that bad as what some are going through... How are [i]you[/i] doing? Are [i]you[/i] coping all right? And if you don't mind me asking; How old are you?