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I'm sorry for not responding sooner, I missed your post :/ 

I feel like depression just consumes pretty much everything, and people who haven't experianced it don't really understand it. My ex would always rant and rave about how she had depression and managed to pull herslef out of it, and how weak I was just because I couldn't, and that there was nothing else anyone could do for me and how I was ruining our relationship by not getting better. I feel like people have sympathy for those suffering, but it runs out very quickly. 

That all sounds so terrible, it breaks my heart that you had to endure that :/ my parents are like my rock, I don't know what I'd do if there was ever a situation where they were in such a vulnerable state. I remeber when we couldn't afford to send my sisters to private school and my Mum just broke down crying and it was such a weird and human side of her that'd I never really seen before. 

Some boys are right shallow arseholes, but I think shitty people will always just be shitty people. Please don't feel like you need to change your body to make others happy. I know it easy for me to sit here and preach about inner beauty blah blah blah, but I really do believe that sexy is something which we find in ourselves, and not in the eyes of others. My ex was a bigger girl, but she was alot smaller than she used to be. I'd look back at old photos of her, when she was bigger, and she just looked so much happier. There was this awesome, giggly side to her that I loved, and still do love, but then there was this awful cold side which I think had been forced onto her, and when I saw the old photos of her she just looked so much more like that awesome giggly person I'd fallen in love with. I guess what I'm trying to say, in my odd manner, is that there are plenty of guys out there who prefer bigger women, or who aren't so blinded by preconceived notions of attractiveness that they can't see the true beauty in someone. I'd like to think I fall somwhere between the two. 

Thank you for your kind support, your words have reachly resignated with me <3 I'm here if you need me too, and I look forwards to RPing with you in the near-future! :D
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Thanks! Glad we had this bonding experience ^_^ yeah, a lot of people mistake depression as just being "sadness" or something, but it isn't. It's this all-consuming thing that just takes hold of you. You care so much, but at the same time, you can't make yourself do anything about it. You sleep all day and sometimes have trouble sleeping, too. You hate leaving the house and don't participate in activities anymore, even activities that you once found enjoyable. And you don't know [i]why[/i]. It's just kinda there; you have no reason sometimes, but you feel it. And at times, you just wanna be swallowed whole by the ground and just disappear. At some points you want to kill yourself, when the depression has gotten really bad, and at other times you don't want to die, necessarily, but you want to sleep forever and never wake up. But people see depression has being synonymous with sadness and so they sometimes throw around the word, not really understanding it. But, people like us do get better, whether it be by modern medicine or a hella good therapist.