Ayane found herself staring at a discolored ceiling as sunlight tried to pierce through the closed blinds over the apartments only window, she lay there motionless snug in her blanket, those blissful few moments before her brain caught up and she remembered everything causing her to sigh dejectedly. She turned her head slightly to get a glimpse at the bedside alarm clock before she went back to looking at the ceiling "[color=aqua]haven't been up this early since i moved here...[/color]". Ayane continued to just lay there deciding whether to get up or not for the better part of ten minuets, after acknowledging she wasn't just going to fall back asleep again Ayane reluctantly got out of her bed, she stood there wearing a baggy t-shirt & boxers her attention fixed on the small table next to her bed on which sat several books, a cheep basic lamp, and her alarm clock. "[color=aqua]Not again...[/color]" Ayane looked around the floor then knelt down to check under her bed, with no success she started lifting her blankets & pillows off her bed throwing it all onto the floor "[color=aqua]oh man...[/color]" Ayane walked out of the small room into an equally small room which was the main part of the apartment and began searching around everywhere for what must have been 20 minuets before she eventually gave up. After unsuccessfully digging through her apartment Ayane walked over to her Hi-fi turning it on just so there was some noise in the deafeningly silent room before she headed into the practically empty bathroom grabbing her toothbrush then squeezing some off-brand toothpaste onto it before she proceeded to brush her teeth as she stared into the mirror stopping when she noticed, mumbling to her reflection "[color=aqua]Idiot...[/color]" Ayane had finally found what she had been looking for, realizing she must have fallen asleep wearing them again, after removing her glasses that had been sitting on-top of her head and placing them on the small shelf under the mirror as she resumed brushing & rinsing really annoyed at herself. When she was done Ayane stood staring at herself in the mirror before trying to motivate herself again "[color=aqua]Right, new day, new start![/color]", She left and went back into her bedroom to grab a pair of jeans & socks before returning to the main room and standing there just looking it over, the masses of piled books against one wall, the litter covered low-laying table that sat in the center of the room, the small stuffed book-shelf's with the Hi-fi on top sitting against the opposite wall, next to the small wooden television stand where a crappy old tv (which she's convinced was made when technicolor first came out) sat next to a Ps2 & scattered piles of games for it. The wall next to the bathroom door sat a worn out old couch (which despite its appearance is surprisingly comfortable) where her guitar sat leaning against the couch. Ayane then turned her attention to the adjoining & bare kitchen where an old empty fridge & a heavily worn cooker barely clung to life, and dreary looking empty cupboards hung above a horrifically scarred & stained tabletop. The sight of the kitchen drove Ayane further into depression when it clicked, she needed to go shopping as there was nothing at all left in the kitchen aside from a near empty ketchup bottle next to salt & pepper shakers in the cupboards, and a decaying half-pepper next to an old takeout box (which she cant remember buying or how long it's been there) in the fridge. "[color=aqua]Guess i have a little cash left that mom sent...[/color]" Ayane threw on her hoodie & sneakers as she headed out of the door, returning a minute later having remembered to lock the door. A short while later... After an uneventful walk to a near by atm (where she found she had less money than expected, thus barely taking anything from it) and then to the local supermarket, Ayane wandered around trying to find anything on deal or has had its price reduced with little success collecting a small pack of eggs, a reduced off-brand pack of bacon, a liter of milk that was on offer & several onions all of which were all relatively cheep. Ayane then wandered towards the isle with all the beer & spirits where she excitedly spotted the last pack of a popular beer brand on special offer, however just before she walked over to pick it up several younger teens? apparently from a local school raced from an adjoining isle and grabbed it "[color=gold]Who-ho! lucky find! i thought we'd end up buying that horrific cheep lager again![/color]" his friend acknowledging it "[color=gold]Yea sweet find dude![/color]" as they vanished deeper into the store. Ayane Stood there a short distance from the now empty shelf, sighing & mumbling under her breath "[color=aqua]of course... should of known better... I'm not that lucky...[/color]" Eventually she shuffled towards the cheep beer the teens had mentioned to grab a pack, as she started to head towards the checkout she noticed bottles of lemonade on sale, again talking to herself as she took a bottle "[color=aqua]Sweet! i could make shandy's![/color]". Her slightly energized mood was immediately drained however when she got near the checkout as a long Que had formed which she reluctantly joined her anxiety & discomfort skyrocketing as more people also lined up behind her, Ayane tried to remain calm and before she knew it due to her near panic she was in front of the cashier who started sorting & bagging all of Ayanes shopping, and then taking the cash Ayane handed over "[color=gray]Hey!, miss your a little short![/color]" Ayane looked in surprise at the cashier sure she had added everything up in her head right "[color=aqua]I, uh, i...[/color]" Ayane routed around frantically in her pockets trying to find any money but she got embarrassed and started panicking as the people behind her started moaning & complaining. "[color=aqua]I, I'm sorry! i don't.. i cant find..[/color]" Ayane could feel her eyes starting to water as the comments from the line behind her grew louder, when the cashier took the bottle of lemonade & the pack of bacon from the bag and scanned them again removing their prices from the total "[color=gray]there!, sorted ok miss?[/color]" the cashier was trying to be kind to Ayane but she was in to much of a state to notice having completely missed the comments he had made to the people moaning in the Que to shut-up & leave her alone. Ayane grabbed the shopping bag & bowed "[color=aqua]I'm s-sorry![/color]" and raced out of the store away from the small crowed behind her at the checkout this time failing to hear the cashier yell that she had change left over from the adjusted total. At the speed Ayane was going on the verge of tears from the humiliation she felt, it wasn't long before she arrived back at her flat having almost smashed her own door down before remembering to unlock it again. Ayane kicked off her shoes on the way in, dropped her carrier bag near the table in the main room and practically dived back into her bed face down, a brief second later Ayane burst into tears because nothing was going her way today... as after driving into bed she remembered all her bedding & pillows where laying on the floor & not comforting her with their softness & warmth which she had wanted "[color=aqua]New day my ass!, it's only morning & already its like every other crappy day I've had...[/color]". Ayane managed to stand back up out of bed rolled herself up in her blanket then ungraciously fell over like a log back onto her bed, amidst her quiet sobbing she could hear music from her Hi-fi playing in the background, Ayane had managed to stop crying and sighed to herself again "[color=aqua]i left the radio on...[/color]" just fed-up with everything so far Ayane just lay there listening to the music trying not to think of anything... [hider=Songs on Hi-fi] - 'Seeker of the Sight' by George Timothy - 'Pieces of the people we love' by The Rapture - 'My Silver Lining' by First Aid Kit - 'Jenny' by Nothing More (playing when she returned from the store & in bed) [/hider]