I have done something very stupid and im really sorry that I also let myself go loose in here. I was very irritated and had a panic attack at the moment so thats what happened after something didn't go the reasonable way I wanted it to go. Im very sorry. I hurted myself to make up for what I did but all I felt after it was emptiness inside of me. So so sorry. I feel ashamed and won't act like this any more. I understand that not everyone accept this apology and I feel the same. Something so stupid shouldnt be accepted.