Sebastian took no real notice to being brushed off like he was, in fact deep inside he was grateful that she had not tried to talk to him. What the heck was he even supposed to say to this girl? He was damn sure the only thing at this point they had in common was they refused to make any real friends. An when you looked at it that didn't seem like an appealing way of starting a conversation with someone. Sebastian found himself peering out the window himself as he saw the terrain clashing from the speed of the train, it was the same as it had been years ago when he first took this trip. The only real difference is no one had cared to share a car with him, people then tended to avoid him like they do now. It was the look in his eye's, the look of unknown behind the grey, it was a scary thing to face the unknown and most people chose not to. He hadn't been afraid of the unknown, in fact he had thrived on the chance to unravel the mystery that shrouded the unknown, to take that one step forward that no one else wanted to. To look for something beyond the normal world, to find truth and meaning behind the picture instead of taking it at face value, that's who he was and still is, not a person who can just make friends and live some happy notion of a life that wouldn't last in the end. He was just sick and tired of everyone trying to open him up to see what was on the inside, tired of no one liking him because he wasn't able to outwardly express himself, tired of sitting in the same old place all the time and trying to avoid the nightmares that plague his unconscious mind.

Sebastian sly looked over at Lystra as he heard her mumble something under her breath, she seemed rather preoccupied with her thoughts, very much like he was with his own. She had the look of someone who was thinking about rather unsettling things, the same look that Harry had more then once said Sebastian showed all the time. As she looked down at her lap Sebastian withdrew his attention back to the landscape outside, as it rolled by memories rolled with it.

[i]"Freak!! Your a freak!!"[/i]

[i]"Your really weird stay away from me!"[/i]

[i]"Ewww don't sit here we don't need any weirdo's in our group!"[/i]

The voices echoed through his head as he clenched his fist tightly enough that it cracked his fingers, they had all distanced him so much, no one had even wanted to know him. He never understood why... he never truly knew why everyone treated him so badly, he never did anything to deserve it. All he ever did was dedicate himself to his school work, it seemed like the farther he went passing second and third years while he was still in his first, the more people treated him like he was some sort of freak. He was the outcast of his house and the entire school. No one cared to treat him like anything else, and his house mates definitely had no support for him that was for sure. Christmas was in the end the loneliest for him, but also the best time for him because everyone went home. But he did often imagine back then what it would have been like to have some place to go to, some place with people who loved him.

"Just a pipe dream nothing more..."

Sebastian spoke very low under his breath as he he chose to stop thinking bout his past at Hogwarts it was no more real now the anything else was. 

[b][i]"This is all so stupid... "[/i][/b]

Sebastian looked over slowly as he had almost forgotten Lystra was even in the car with him, he saw her casually wipe her cheek hiding what would have been a tear or at least that's what it seemed like to him. He sighed inside knowing he had to say something to her, he had to try and befriend her somehow and what better place to start then now. Flicking his wrist slightly his wand exited the mechanism on his wrist as his wand fell into his hand, swishing it gently a piece of fabric appeared from the tip, grabbing it he offered it across to Lystra as he spoke:

"I don't mean to impose but is everything okay?"