[@Loony] Well we are all here for you no matter what. It is very serious that you do as they say. My mother and family is prone to depression but she has always had the worst of it. I literally had to tell her when meds were bad for her so please listen to the people around if they say it is no good even when you might think it is. You could be focused on the suicidal part and miss other negative signs. We all love you and are here to support you