Because this isn't something new. I've been fighting it for a while.

I've been fighting it for a while and I never wanted to hurt anyone.

But that's the case anyways while I'm alive so why not.

I've been holding off because I didn't think I could get away with it. Just like before. So many people in the house.

So I tried pushing boundries a bit and just...It was okay. No one noticed. And the one person who did didn't care.

All it is now is just taking the freakin' bottle and not being such a wuss.