[@Akayaofthemoon] I don't know about you being older than me but thanks.  I have been through some difficult experiences but I have so little to show for it.  I guess you could say that the losses I've been through have made me stronger but I really, really don't feel very strong right now. I really appreciate the encouragement and I'll try to listen to it, it means a whole lot that you want to make me feel better and I think you're a great friend.  I'll take your advice about planning out what I'm going to do for a day too, hopefully that will be easier once I'm not in so much pain.