Bitter thoughts spread through her mind and she did try to keep that at bay as much as she could. The shaking going through her body had eased now as Joran warmed her and kept her close. The smile on her face hidden from his sight as the deep vibrations of his voice reverberated through her. She took a deep breath, attempting to steady herself and ease the already slowing tears. 

She peeked out from her spot and saw him raising a pinkie. Her heart swelled a moment at the action- it was one she did as a child. She hesitated for a moment before a soft chuckle came from her, her own smaller pinkie wrapping around his own. She kept her pinkie wrapped around his as she adjusted her position so she could look at him from under the sheets.

"Who'd have thunk it." Sol arched a brow and wiped away the last of her tears from her red eyes, "The Smuggler extraordinaire Joran Jace is a big softie who makes pinkie promises." An actual laugh escaped her as she moved back towards him again. "At least you smell nice." She absently said as she just...stayed there. If she could just stay under there with him for the rest of her life she would be fine with that.

The ringing in her ears could only be endured for so long before she spoke again, "You know how I said I didn't exist? I really don't. My file never existed in the first place and when you look up Solaras Apontha all that comes up is my political history. My file says I'm from Naboo not a whore house in Coruscant. It says my mother and father were killed in a star ship accident. I don't know how my father is and my mother was an escort who died at the hands of her kid when she tried to stop her mother's boss from choking her to death when she said she was stealing credits from him.. The kid lost her control and electrocuted them to death. It was an accident of course but an event that happened none the less. " She spoke in a clinical manner- it was easier for her to detach herself from the situation that way. "It also says I graduated out of one of the First Order academies... I never actually went to school. I taught myself after 'He' took me in. I had tutors but they were all droids." 

She didn't know why she was saying all of this but somewhere in her heart she just wanted to share with him and hoped he would do the same with her. She trusted him.