The longer he spoke the harder she listened. At one point she actually pulled away from him to watch him as he returned the favor and massaged her own head, it was extremely soothing to her. Solaras wasnt quite sure how to comfort him but something told her to listen and not speak. 

"Its like you said...a file is just a file. The past doesnt mstter anymore." Her hands rose to gently touch his face, small hands on either sides of his cheeks. She stared intently at him as her thumbs rubbed lightly back and forth against his stubbled skin. 

"Both of us do what must be done to survive. We are both acting of our free will and nothing would change that. We have both done less than savory things and therr is no denying that." She shifted under the sheets so she could be a tad higher than him, her lips pressing lightly into his own forehead. 

She quietly whispered, "What matters is right here and right now. Not what happened when you were ten or eleven or thirteen. Not what happened when you were barely in this universe. What matters is that you are safe and living and breathing and alive." She gently pulled his head towads her chest, cradling it lightly. "You are important Joran and you matter to me."