Sara ordered a bacon double cheeseburger with fries and a chocolate shake, the effects of the conversation to come leaving her feeling quite vulnerable and almost sick to her stomach. She needed something horrid for her to eat in an effort to try and not drown in the memories that played at the edge of her subconsciousness. She breathed out softly as he mentioned how many people were aware of the project and by his count, she was the one who failed. 

What he said next about Matthew was a complete shocker to her. Her face registered no emotion as she tried to comprehend his utterances, putting two and two together and not ready to share her story, but feeling a small wave of agony from Kelly as he reminisced on his own part that was played in Matthews death. The truth of the matter was that no one was responsible. It was a job that Matt signed up for whether Kelly pushed him to do it or Sara welcomed in him. He was a grown man and made his own decisions. It could've been her neck that was snapped in half and yet it wasn't.

She felt a bit of relief for the first time in years, almost as if Kelly offering to share the burden of Matt's death would make things better - and it did. She picked up her drink and took a long slow sip, her eyes on Kelly as she debated what to say and what not to say. She wasn't interested in saving lives by building a monster that if let loose could kill everyone. Science was their slave master and they were bowing down to it just because there was a small ray of home. 

The food arrived and she welcomed it, bowing her head for a small prayer before looking up at Kelly. "Don't be sorry. It's a compliment that you think me capable of helping you do something so secretive and yet I'm not the right person. I don't know what you think you've figured out, but the facts and circumstances are something I'm not going to discuss. My past is closed and sits in Matt's grave with him as far as I'm concerned. I'm not who I was and honestly that leaves me completely uninterested and wiling as a co-worker to tell you to run like hell from this. No good can come of it." 

She picked up her burger and bit deeply into it, a groan leaving her mouth as she enjoyed the flavors that burst across her taste buds.