[hr][hr][center][url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v_hODBF6JI]I only have myself to blame but do you think we can start again?[/url][/center][hr][hr]
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([color=dodgerblue][i]Why did... I even come here?[/i][/color])

The alcohol wasn't helping his self confidence. Zac stared at Niles...

([color=dodgerblue][i]You're right... I don't belong here.[/i][/color]) He needed to be strong. Coming this far, but for what? To run away? Niles was probably waiting for it to happen. Old habits die hard, right? Was Zac always going to be seen as a kid to him? This needed to be fast. If he kept brooding on this, he was bound to let his emotions get the best of him. Sighing to himself, he did as Niles told him and went to the VIP lounge. ([color=dodgerblue][i]Maybe I should have asked Jules to come? I-I don't want to be here...[/i][/color])

"[color=dodgerblue]I'm with Niles Blake...[/color]" the confidence was dying out of Zac the more and more he came to terms with his stupid fantasy. He was still a damn child and Niles could see that. A damn child whose closest thing to a best friend he had was his twin sister and the second closest person to him would be Jules, who just did random shit for him in the past because he never fails on being so goddamn nice. Friend was a loose term to call Julius. Up until last week, they didn't see each other since... that one night... and before that night, they didn't see each other since the group was together. Staring at his beverage as he walked to the corner of the lounge by a sofa (not bothering to sit down), Zac stared at the substance that gave him some sort of bliss, numbing the pain he could feel without it. 

Lost in thought, the man didn't bother to observe the high class lounge. Everyone seemed to be doing good for themselves. Alver lived in his grandfather's house and was content with his life choices. Micah had a beautiful baby boy that brought him incomprehensible joy regardless of his issues. Julius was pretty well off and loved his job as a construction engineer. Genie was sure of himself, even with his skeptical glare and their short 'first' meeting. Last but never the least, there was Niles, someone Zac had recently found out was a decent actor and had a lovely fan base to show for his success. 

Did Zac really allow a woman to cloud his perspective and ignore all his surroundings, including himself? He didn't want to blame Scarlet for drifting away from him. What did he have to show as a man? He had no degree, lived in a studio apartment his uncle paid off years ago, used his dead parents' car, had a lack of ambition to pursue a career in something he loved, and... the only thing he had worth talking about was his cultivating skill as a bartender. He remembered his third year English teacher encouraging him to pursue entertainment may it be acting or singing or both but at the time Scarlet was suicidal. He couldn't be selfish and leave her... 

There he goes again. Thinking about her. ([color=dodgerblue][i]She left you for a guy that could take care of her. How do you expect to get anywhere if you can't even take care of yourself?[/i][/color]) Huh. That's why he needed to do this. The only time he went through any positive leaps in his life was when he had this wonderful group of friends. No, he didn't want to use them to make him feel better about himself... not at all. Just seeing them happy with their lives would be inspiration enough to continue trudging on.

([color=dodgerblue][i]I just want to know they're okay... and what if? What if we could be friends again?[/i][/color]) Zac realized he was dazed out for a minute or two. Dammit. Time wasted. Turning to Niles, he brought his free hand to his hair and scratched his head, "[color=dodgerblue]Uh, yeah... sorry. Can we talk under better circumstances, like tomorrow? Do you have the same email or a snazzy business card?[/color]"

Taking a sip of his drink, Zac sighed, "[color=dodgerblue]I don't know much of what you've been up to, but from what I've heard, you're doing pretty well.[/color]" His blue orbs softened the more he talked, unintentionally showing he was proud of Niles, "[color=dodgerblue]Um, I've been kind of... distracted, so sorry if this isn't the kind of meeting you'd want.[/color]" He hinted at how he was unable to treat the actor as a fan since he would never be able to see him as some top dog he was becoming. Niles would always be Niles to Zac, even if he changed tremendously over the years. 

"[color=dodgerblue]I shouldn't keep you... I can send you an email tonight and if I see you tomorrow, great, but if not, that's fine too. It's silly of me anyways.[/color]" He gave his old friend a weak smile and though he was dying to leave, his feet stood planted on the ground until Niles responded. 

[hr][hr][center][url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v_hODBF6JI]See the problem isn't you, it's me I know. I can tell, I've seen it time after time and I'll push you away.[/url][/center][hr][hr]
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