[color=gold] "Octavia? Octavia?"[/color] Lucius murmured as he shook her gently to no avail, the young angel had fainted. Lucius sighed, then stood up and cradled her in his arms. [color=gold]"You know what princess? I know you can't hear me but nonetheless, your order was cruel and I wish you would take it back but I know you can't. How can I live like that? You would even mark me a traitor if I went against it? The light is my life and if I loose that... well.. I don't want to think about it."[/color] he became silent, he didn't know what to say. The Knight of Angels then began to walk towards the capital, thinking about everything and nothing. 

The princess was not heavy in the slightest but Lucius began to feel exhausted by the time the castle came into view. Upon entering the castle grounds, servants came and whisked Octavia away, probably to her quarters. Lucius was asked if he needed medical aid, but only asked for a horse. He did not want to stick around and see Octavia when she awoke, already their relationship was strained and things would only get worse if he remained.

With a heavy heart, he set out and did not look back. With no destination in mind, he went as far away from the border and the war as he could. 

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Lucius opened his eyes, light stunned him for a moment and as his eyes adjusted he saw nothing but green and blue. He was laying face up in a ditch, the sky above him was as beautiful as ever. The white clouds looked like wings. Angel wings. It came back to him then, the previous day seemed to long ago but it had scarred him as ever. He felt his entire body, looked over the new scars and found he probably looked hideous.

With a groan he got up and looked over his surroundings, nothing looked familiar and the damn horse was gone. He wasn't even sure he was near civilization. He went to grab his staff but what a shock it was when he realized he had never picked it up from the clearing. 

[color=gold] "Damn it! Damn it all!" [/color] Lucius shouted at the sky. He had no idea what he was going to do, there was no roads that he could see, no paths to take but wonder the wilderness in search of something. He began at once, trying to see if he could find anything useful around him but came up with only a stream, which he gladly drank from. 

Hours passed, hunger was beginning to creep on him and he felt so tired but kept going. After a while, his thoughts wondered to the wraith that had wounded him so greatly. He thought about this to avoid his hunger pains, Lucius usually found a persistent mind was key to survival. He could probably touch the wraith but couldn't risk it, the thing was just too powerful and he didn't want to be full of icicles. He shivered, if only he had more power but right now, he was probably at his weakest.

If it wasn't for the damn demon and the princess things would have went differently, now he was lost with no food. So tired, Lucius finally sat down on a rock and sighed. He was surrounded by trees and could not see very far and it only added to his frustration. He covered his face with his hands and just sat there. 

[color=gold] "If I was more powerful, none of this would have happened. Gahh! Why am I so weak? Why am I so... human?"[/color] he cried out, in the woods.