[hr][hr][center][url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YNABw1XfZc]You were the best thing to happen to me, a long time ago in my past. I faced all my fears and I burned bridges down, then I tried to go back...[/url][/center][hr][hr]
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Niles didn't make this easier. No, somehow he made this experience more agonizing than Zac was mentally prepared for. Cringing at the bluntness, Zac stared at the moving lips as they pointed out the flaws in his poor attempt. The grip he had on his drink tightened, but not once did he look away, no matter how fearful he was. The person he was afraid of meeting the most today was Niles... for more than just a simple reason. There may have been a contradictory hope of not finding him this lovely Thursday night. A scenario where Zac just stayed at the bar, got drunk, and Gabby took him home... but then that would mean, Zac didn't try. If he gave up, he would have felt even worse than hearing these sharp words. At least Niles was being honest and this pain was nothing like what the long-haired boy experienced in the past.

The chocolate eyes never turned away from the man child. Deep seated feelings that only good would prevail was something Zac had to constantly tell himself. His protective guard was crumbling as the hammer kept smashing into the poorly renovated wall he tried to create to protect him from all this torment. His shaken heart ached, but he didn't want to be seen as someone so weak even if his thoughts told him otherwise. Perhaps that is why Scarlet left him? A woman of her stature needed a powerful, confident man, someone who could stand tall and guide her through the creeping darkness of the world. 

The voice came to a halt. Taking a deep breath in, Zac went to a sofa right next to Niles' chair and gently sat himself down. Placing his drink on a side table, he clasped his hands together and let his right thumb subconsciously rub his left. The couches were rather comfortable but Zac didn't want to think about anything but the matter at hand. Sitting down was for the sake of keeping himself stable. At this rate, Niles' words were going to make the young man collapse. 

([color=dodgerblue][i]You can do it... just be honest.[/i][/color])

His blue orbs became distant as he spoke the racing thoughts in his mind, "[color=dodgerblue]Do you ever wonder if you could turn back time? Rewrite your life so it wouldn't turn out so... painful. I can't help but find myself drifting further and further away from reality because... it hurts so much.[/color]" Unintentionally, tears began to trail down his cheeks, his attention was no longer toward his old friend but locked inside the dark abyss that held all his memories, "[color=dodgerblue]I don't want any of you to feel like you need to take care of me. I just need one moment, only a moment, where things seem different. Lying to myself that nothing is falling apart. My plan is not the brightest but... you guys made me feel like I...[/color]" Covering his face with his hands, he just let the stream spill out. His voice became muffled by doing so.

"[color=dodgerblue]...could take on this godforsaken place... I haven't changed and you saw right through me, didn't you? I'm still selfish. I'm still hopeless. I'm still...[/color]" Zac couldn't help but choke on his words. 

([color=dodgerblue][i]Fuck me. Stop it. Stop crying. This is ugly.[/i][/color]) Stopping his tears from making him look more of a fool, Zac wiped his face and brought his stare back to Niles, "[color=dodgerblue]All I'm asking is one night of your time tomorrow.[/color]" He wanted to go home and drown himself in his bath tub. This... this display probably lost all chances at convincing Niles to come. He didn't need to put up with this. None of them did. Why was it so hard to be strong?

([color=dodgerblue][i]Runaway, you know you want to. Why change now?[/i][/color]) Standing up once more, leaving his drink on the table, Zac tried to figure out words of retreat, but no more words could escape his quivering lips. He was terrified of the backlash. It wasn't like Niles cared if Zac stayed or not, he said it himself... 

([color=dodgerblue][i]But why can't my feet move...[/i][/color]) 

[@Fabricant451]

[hr][hr][center][url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_YNABw1XfZc]You call the shots this time, I'll take the blame well deserved. I'd die to keep you from pain. You knew me better than anyone else, it's a shame.[/url][/center][hr][hr]