Both times she had played Noah now and lost. She wanted to become more active in playing with him; it was one of her desires. Given their time on the trail, she would have plenty of opportunity. The closer he would come to heal though she would want more and more to see him fly, to become strong again, and to feel like the master over his domain once more.

There in the tent, he was hardly master of anything except winning the card game, and he had to rely on Elann for a great many things in his present state. Noah was becoming more independent though and she was happy to see it. She had written about how she longed to see him soar again, to change before her. While most of her journaling was thoughts of the day, fun experiences she had, or new things she had learned, some of them were her desires for him in language that should anyone read it, they may not understand what was written.

He brought her journal between them and as it was closer to her, she pressed it toward him, showing that between them there were no secrets. 

"This is a new one, yes. I started it when we were on our way toward Zeltiva. I was planning on writing a bit in it tonight on what we did, how Aimee helped me set up the tent and seemed to be doing a little better than before, maybe something about how your kisses feel..."

If Noah read it, he would see the passion expressed through their bond in places where she would write down what she thought of him. If he ever read them, he could gain the understanding that at times she seemed satisfied with him completely, and other times she would feel like something was missing between him and her that she saw in normal passionate couples among her people. Though it was rare, she knew of their drive to seek each other sexually and that was not in their relationship, not to the extent she wanted. While her works would not come right out and say that, it would be possible to understand it if you could understand her innuendos in certain areas. She had told him what was on her heart and didn't care to hide it in her writing, but didn't want it to seem like it truly destroyed her. At first it did, but she had since come to know how much he loved her in many other ways.

There were even sections within that spoke of Caesarion and how destroyed it seemed to have made Noah, but for the most part that would have been in earlier volumes of her writing. Elann would let him read to his heart's content. There were pages with tears on them and stained ink that particularly stood out that ranged from tears of sadness with their fighting and her views, and tears of later sadness of apology. There were pages of tears given their redemption and her joy when they got along, but short to say, it would all speak to the woman's strong emotions and desire to see emotion in her husband for her in many ways.