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Man, my aunt doesn't live with me no more and though it can be really frustrating with my parents it's not like they're being abusive or anything. My school's real supportive, the alt school I'm in now - I'm not even sure mom sending me back to the old one is even gonna work because according to news through some new students here who went to that school, there's a new principal and he's been sending any kids who'd give the school a 'bad image' here, which though I don't know is true or not, would definitely explain the sudden increase of kids from my old school being here. And it won't matter how much money I have if we move to Kurdistan, I'm still a dead son of a bitch. And if I make it 'til 18? My parents can't take me anywhere. I mean granted I doubt I can survive out on my own and my only irl friend who I can count on maybe living with is a year younger than I am. The only other irl friend I have, well, I'm not sure if I can rely on him solely because he's got his own set of problems and there's the fact that I don't know him nearly as well as the other or am as comfortable with. My sister's in so much debt I'd probably not be able to attend school for a while and just work to help her pay it off. My aunt obviously won't want me back, and I highly doubt my other aunt here will, and if I go with my uncle I won't be able to attend school because farming, and my other uncle is jobless and won't be able to be a doctor here for at least another three years, which is a long way from now. So I'm sorta just stuck. But they still can't take me nowhere. Plus I'd feel real shitty asking for money when people have it so much worse and I'm in no immediate danger.

What I'm really upset by more than anything is just that I have to deal with the reality that I might NEVER go back. [i]And that hurts.[/i] [b][i]A lot.[/i][/b]
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