[quote=@Lugubrious]
Looks like I've messed up pretty badly then.  It's not been many times in my life that I've felt my heart sink.  Doing badly on tests gets me pretty badly, but I think that knowing that I've screwed up so badly that now people who I care about hate me and that there's nothing I can do to fix it is just about the worst feeling I can have.  For a while I was holding out the hope that others were in the wrong, but it looks like it's me.  It makes me want to either give up or break down, completely.  I'm sorry, for whatever it's worth.  Anything I could say in my defense would only make me shabbier.  It must seem like a complete lie if I say that I never meant to be an asshole, except for my recent post to Plank.  I say I'm stupid because I don't think about what I'm saying online, and what effect it has on people, which is why I tend do go back and edit my posts loads of times.  That much is true.

I don't know what to do next.  Would it fix things if I were to leave, or does suggesting that make me even more of an asshole?  I never thought I'd dig myself a grave this deep.  
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No one's asking you to leave. If anything, your departure would be the final nail in the coffin; games rarely survive that power vacuum. Nor did anyone say anything with the intent to make you leave. I can't speak for Write, but I think he spoke up for the same reason I did; we saw the stakes get too high too imminently, and weren't about to leave Plank out in the cold. 

When someone fucks up, they sometimes need to be shown that they fucked up. You were.

So try and learn from that as we all move on.