Marta felt actual pain when Ezra ripped his hand from hers. She knew it wasn't intentional, but the sting was still there. She looked over as she saw the emotions play out across his face. While their time together has been short, Marta could read Ezra's emotions like a book. She saw the sadness, anger and confusion. She could also sense the disbelief, and when he tried to play it off as a joke, Marta wanted to just laugh and tell him it all was. And in a way, it is. She didn't want to do what she said, it was the last thing she wanted to do. But her brain convinced her it was the right thing to do. Damn her brain, it always caused the problems. 

She felt Ezra move farther away and begin pleading to her, trying to make her understand everything would work out. Had her optimism rubbed off on him? Was that a good thing or a dangerous thing? Marta wanted to keep believing it was a good thing, but if it were then they wouldn't be in this situation. There wouldn't be this cloud of doom hanging over their head, but it was there. But Marta hoped it would be a rainbow on the other side. Curse her positive outlook, the same positive behavior that made her crumble. There was no way she could go forth with the logical plan. The plan that could save Ezra's life, the plan she just tried to put into action, but Ezra put up so many blockades. So when Ezra asked her for a real reason, she was left speechless. 

Unable to control her emotions, Marta closed the gap between her and Ezra and gave him a passionate kiss on the lips. When she pulled back, she kept close, her hand clutching onto his shirt and the other running her fingers through his hair. "I can't... I can't give you a reason. Not because there isn't one, there are thousands of reasons why you should let me go, but I won't let you. I am no good for you. I am the worst thing that has ever happened to you, but you are the best thing that has ever happened to me."

She pulled back slightly, running her fingers along his cheek, wiping the tears that he missed. "You should have never followed me out of the bakery the first day. You were a fool... but I am an even bigger fool to imagine my life without you. When I said I loved you, I meant it. I love you Ezra, so much so, you were right... I am going to be the death of you, but I am too god damn selfish to leave."

She took a deep breath in, still clinging to Ezra's shirt. So much for that plan. But it was a vicious cycle these two were in, and would continue to be in until things really did change. Nothing could change until Marta was no longer a threat to Ezra, which was the day she officially was converted. Until that day, Marta would live with the guilt of knowing anything terrible that happens to Ezra is her fault.