Ezra nodded. He knew from the start that his Rabbi would be against it. He felt just as Ezra did and the two of them talked frequently about his situation with Marta. He couldn't help but feel partly responsible for the choice his Rabbi made in deciding not to convert her. He'd begged him shortly after he left the hospital to refuse Marta, to save her life and to keep her from being foolish because he couldn't do it himself. Lincoln had understood, and had tried to talk it out calmly with Ezra, but he hadn't been in the mood for more discussion. It seemed like he had agreed. 

"Rabbi Lincoln is looking for your best interest and converting now, so hastily while the world around our community is crumbling wouldn't have been good. I had a hand in his choice and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I was ashamed at my words when I woke up the next morning. It was just after I came home from the hospital. I was on all those medications for the pain, I was practically delirious. I had meant to speak with him again, but I was too scared," Ezra admitted while closing his eyes. "I will marry you Marta, even if it's against my people. I will lay with you in the way husband and wife do and I will love you for eternity. My father has already given his blessing for the second part. He thinks it would be less against my religion to just have sex with you than it is to marry out of it. I choose you over my people and I will continue to choose you until the end of my days."

He began to fumble with the pendant on his necklace, his chest was tight and he believed his words more than anything else. He knew what he was saying was wrong, but he couldn't stop himself. He couldn't help but feel Satan was testing him at the hand of God. He couldn't help but feel like he was failing the trial being given. Perhaps, a small perhaps, he was passing though. God could have demanded Satan to test Ezra's ability to love unconditionally. To choose love over a life of disdain and hate. If he had Marta the hate he held for Oscar would diminish underneath the weight of his happiness.


(Just so you're aware this the views of Satan x God for Jewish people: Jews do believe in Satan, but it's the Satan, like a job title and it means hinderer. So in Judaism the Satan works for God, his job is to hinder and to test so that only the worthy pass. So yes they believe in angels, what they don't believe is that any of the angels could actually rebel against God)