Kiyomi was comforted by the shawl being passed over her shoulders, announcing Ragnar's arrival. It was strange - Kiyomi always saw the man drunk off his behind, and only rarely, coming out with odd statements as he tried to roleplay. But she had just felt that he had good intentions, and let him into the guild regardless of other people and their opinions...now it came back to reward her. She wouldn't have thought the drifter to be as reasonable as this, but there was a gut feeling, and her gut feelings about people were usually correct. Her ears drooped as she sniffled for a while longer, accepting the tea as she settled down onto a cushion near the hearth.

She stared at her own, sniveling reflection in the surface of the tea. [i]"What are you doing, sitting here and crying like a sap? Get up and start sorting things out."[/i] came a little voice from her thoughts. Her thoughts replied miserably, [i]"And what am I to do? I can't see my family, or my friends..."[/i] after a moment, she rather nastily thought [i]"And besides; I should be crying. Erebus was a nutter to begin with and Ragnar's just a drunkard who-"[/i]

[i]"Oh, SHUT UP, will you?"[/i] retorted the little voice from her thoughts. [i]"Don't go down that path. You're better than that. These two are looking for a guild leader to start organizing things, getting a grip on the situation at hand, and you're curled up sobbing for people that you'll never see again because you physically can't. Well, they don't need your help - YOU need your help, and these two need you."

"I'm not Chiharu!"[/i] snapped Kiyomi's thoughts at herself, as she shifted her weight uneasily and took a sip of tea, tears dripping into the cup. [i]"Yeah, you're not, but you made her. Like it or not, you and Chiharu share personalities."[/i] for a long while, Miyomi was dead silent, her depressed attitude hanging over her like a cloud. Then she quickly finished her cooling tea and abruptly shifted into a straight-backed, cross-legged sitting position, eyeing Ragnar and Erebus thoughtfully. A hand went to wipe at her tears gently, and her ears perked up. She had a new determination lighting up in her eyes; she was done crying about the past because people needed her now.

"If we opened up our guild hall to everyone, people will just come in and loot all our stuff." stated Kiyomi bluntly. "I saw the men at the guild banks, and I'm worried people are going about this the wrong way, and want to take advantage of other people, and other guilds. If we're going to have to gain more members - which we do - I want to approach them first, instead of them approaching us. Hopefully my initial instincts about these things won't betray me."

She smiled sympathetically at Erebus when his stomach growled, shaking her head. "I haven't got any food, but i'm sure we can go out to the market and find something to eat there." She looked across the guild hall, and her voice took on a much quieter tone. She didn't sound as afraid as she did earlier, but she still had doubts it seems.

"Guys...I'm a lower level, and I'm horribly under-geared. If we leave the city I might be more of a burden than an asset." she mutters, setting down her teacup on the table. "The only things I can help with are finances - and even then, I haven't got enough for some proper armour...and I think the only way to go about it is to start killing monsters."

She lets that proposal hang in the air for a while, before getting to her feet. "And if we're going to kill monsters, we need more people. When you two are ready, we'll go out to the marketplace and the taverns...seeing the guild hall this empty is such a shame, plus we can get some food to store in here."