Ashleigh didn't look up, a little perplexed why Jason had followed her. [i]that's something Paulina would say[/i] She thought to herself, [i]but she'd say I put too much on myself, that I expect too much. She'd say that I was doing well. But she doesn't know about the nightmares. She thinks they're finished. She doesn't know how hard it is, She thinks I'm doing okay...[/i]. She looked up as Jason hovered over her, [color=f6989d]"I bare everyone's burden and no ones. People can't help what they feel. But I can help how I react. And most of the time its a constant battle for control, even with the bracelet. Because I'm scared.

They all think I knew of my powers for years, and maybe I did, but it wasn't consciously. No, the first time I was truly aware of them was when I had the crap beat out of me by someone I loved. Do you know what it was like, to feel that wrathful anger? That hatred, and...justification? I still don't even know what I did wrong. 

There was more than my body that was broken, more than my abilities can heal. I'm [i]terrified[/i] of them. Paulin's tried to inhibit my powers further, but it just isn't possible. You can't inhibit emotion"[/color]

She didn't know why she was letting this all out, to someone she had just met, when she couldn't even say it to Paulina, or Vedika. Maybe it was because they believed she was doing better than they thought. Maybe it was because on some level she didn't want to disappoint them. She had felt Paulina's surprise, and then pride when she had seen her still there last night. 

Perhaps she would have said more, if Vedika hadn't come up. Her energetic nature was a stark contrast to the exhaustion she had been around. She gave a sigh, rising in one fluid motion, feeling just that tiny bit better for letting something out, although she was sure she had just sent Jason running from her. [color=f6989d]"No, but I never will be, so lets just get to class, and hope I don't turn everyone into a blubbering mess"[/color]

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