Trust me it isn't. I have a pre-existing seizure condition that has landed me in the hospital twice before this. That only compounds the shit that I've felt on top of that due to this illness of mine my anxiety has risen to the point where I believe I may be depressed due to various problems going on with my body. I feel like I'm a man more than half my god damn age and it pisses me off. I shouldn't feel this way when I'm as young as I am.