if I'm being perfectly honest, crap. My back, neck, and shoulder hurts as well sa my left leg because I fell off a chair, I'm having to sit at my desk despite teh pain fo finish off an assignment and prepare for my tutorial work tomorrow, I feel like I"m not giving everything I can to my roleplays, particularly the ones I GM. I'm tired, I feel like crap-stomach pains and now nausea, and I think I'm delveoping a pain in my side and that could be anything. 

My hayfever is acting up..

And I'm so very tired of doing everrything right, of working my arse off and getting no physical results. I'm 25 and I'm still being bullied, mainly online. 

I haven't slept well since I was 14, but doctors won't give me sleeping pills and I hate psychiatrists so I can't work through my nightmares. 

And I'm just so tired of trying and getting nothing back. 

In short, pain and depression. A pretty sucky combo. 

I'm sorry for rambling. 

oddly enough, it's made me feel just a little bit better.