[@Spinna]

That is kind of what I have been doing so at least I am headed in the right direction. I haven't been doing much exercise but I have been taking short walks for my breaks at work since I have been having panic attacks and need air. I am starting a detox diet for a week on Monday so that should help my body feel better and lose some weight which will make me feel better about myself. I want to be the weight I need and use to be before my husband. I need to get back to the beginning before I can move forward completely. I know it sounds stupid but I don't feel like me.
 
I am also doing a new thing where I go to the movies every Tuesday since all movies are 5 dollars a ticket. It is helping me get use to being in public without freaking out or shying away.