[@shylarah]
Yeah, see... that's definitely a way we differ -- I saw all of the damage being done to me by the various medications I was tossed on throughout my life, but no one ever bothered listening to me or showed willingness to take me off them. They just assumed they knew better and any faults for the problems in my life had to be [i]mine[/i]. Ultimately I never got a chance to get off the drugs until I moved in with my dad (he immediately took me off of them), but for the next several years I had to repair the damage and trauma -- I've literally spent the last several years piecing a broken mind back together after I was forcibly put into a shell and silenced my whole life.

Those responsible for putting me on the meds might've meant well, but holy shit did they fuck up my life and hold me back. I don't [i]hate[/i] them or anything, but I'll never let others make another decision for me -- not that I 'chose' to let them in the past or anything, since it was all forced on me. I've overcome my past, but it doesn't mean my future wasn't ruined.

Dinosaurs was an example (a very out of date example), but yeah... as I mentioned previously, I'm a very extreme likes and dislikes person -- whatever I have an interest or focus on is where all of my insight and wisdom goes into, so I end up excelling very easily at anything that I'm fascinated by and then everything else doesn't even show up on my mental radar in terms of attention. Science, for example, doesn't interest me at all (meaning I'll only learn a scientific detail if I need it for my project), though I do enjoy metaphysics. I'm far more interested in the more deep and philosophical aspects of the world -- how things in the empirical world work is irrelevant to me. I think people spent too much time focusing on the material, neglecting the mental and spiritual aspects of themselves, and ultimately falling into weakness due to it -- as I've said before when speaking of nihilism... there are harsh consequences.