[quote=@Akayaofthemoon]
[@Pathfinder]

I feel like I am letting you all down. I swear everytime I start to feel human again, he called or texts and I fall to pieces. Im typing through tears right now and I just want to scream. I wish I didn't love him. I wish it was as easy for me as it was for him...to just move on like nothing is wrong.
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block the number. This sounds like exactly whats going on with my mom and her ex. It took me weeks to finally convince her to block that number, and once that happened, she cheered right up since he couldn't contact her to bring her down again. Sounds like a similar situation so this should help out a lot. I'll gladly try to help ya, though I tend to be more active with my helping. 

Also how old are you? College or no?

I was at a nearby city all weekend touring lots of museums. Lots of fun stuff I learned. Also found BACON FLAVORED COTTON CANDY. lol Didn't see all the museums I wanted, but its only an hour away so thats not too bad.