I drove off my roleplaying friend of 3 years,at the very least for now, and I can't seem to stop focusing on them. I knew them semi-personally,I hurt them badly and only time will tell if we will ever get back together again,or if I'll get the chance to explain myself. They were the person I roleplayed the most with,the one I had the more serious roleplays with,and now everything feels raw...it feels....tasteless and numb. I want to continue roleplaying badly, especially with my friend,but I know I must give them plenty of space to live their life for the time being. But I don't know what to do to keep myself preoccupied,and every time my thoughts wander back I just want to cry and break down.